Saturday, January 10, 2009

To Gabriel

At the bottom of my desk drawer, tucked inside an envelope, is a small collection of my favorite photos of you. Looking at them, I can’t help but smile. What a little imp you were: exuberant, mischievous, curious, happy.

Today those times seem very far away or as if they belonged to someone else. It seared my soul to hear you say that you sometimes want to stab yourself in the head to make the voices stop. I feel so helpless, unable to silence the voices or chase the visions back into the shadows. I would give anything to give you some peace.


Christina Shaver said...

Is there a way to contact you? I have a young boy whose specialists say has psychotic episodes. I have not found anyone else out there with a child so young going through what I am. Could you please click on my profile and e-mail me?

Joy said...

God bless you Galen. God bless our children who we feel so helpless to help. Oh how I feel every bit of what you wrote here.